>> Wednesday, April 24, 2013
I think I have given up. I still run yet I have not been in the gym in forever. I don`t know how I once had so much motivation and now it is all gone. Maybe it is because my future like so many things nowadays is in the cloud.
I long for the days when I had organization in my life. When I ate well and went for to the gym. I am sure that I could have those days back but I am at a lose at how to get where I used to be. I long for the days when I weighed 209 or even 214 hell even 223. Every few months the numbers just keep climbing and I am at a lose at where to begin because I feel as if I have already thrown in the towel.