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    That is how many pounds MORE I weigh this year than at this time last year.  I don't even know why I have this blog anymore.  It is suppose to be a WEIGHT LOSE BLOG instead it is a....I don't even know what is it.  I am not an helping anyone by no losing weight, including myself.
     I have good intentions, but obviously when I do nothing, nothing happens.  I know this, this is nothing new to me.

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Jacob's Ladder

   The weather here continues to be unbearable (-35C with the wind, WTF!?)  Sometimes I wonder what possessed my parents to move here from warm, hot Trinidad...Yesterday I made it to the gym and tried Jacob's Ladder.  This machine is often seen on Biggest Loser in the gym, so decided to try it yesterday:

Doesn't it look like so much fun?  NOT!  It was so hard.  I could only do a minute or two and then I had to take a rest, I did that about 5 times.  Sweat was caressing my face.  I definitely think that I am going to give it another go tonight.

I am going on the Grad Ski trip this weekend, I am going to try my darnedest to stay on course.  The teacher that I am sharing a room with and I have made a healthy meal plan and there is a gym/pool on site that I hope that I can visit.  Wish me luck!

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Addicted To Catfish

Finally made it to the gym. 

    Can I just say that I am addicted to Catfish.  That show has me mesmerized   Like a car crash on the 401 I just cannot look away. For those of you that don't know, Catfish is a reality show on MTV in which people who are in online relationships write the host to finally meet their "love".  As you can guess the person that they have been talking to for months or years is never what they seem.
 I am amazed that someone can be in a relationship with another person for YEARS and not meet them in person.  Also, when you have to STEAL or BORROW another person's pictures because you are not comfortable with your own then you have a problem.  How can people live with themselves when they are living a lie? Or making fake profiles because it is "fun" and having people fall in love with you?  That is just wrong.  IF you haven't seen the show, just check out one episode...

 Let me tell you a little story....

Does anyone remember Black Planet? For those of you that don't know, Black Planet was like Black Facebook back in 2000.  Everyone had a profile.  I was seeing this guy (R) and then one day I got a message from another guy (X). X was telling me that he knows R and R doesn't really care about me blah, blah, blah.  So I asked R if he knew this guy and he didn't.  After a few weeks it all came out in the wash. X was actually R's ex-girlfriend who had made a fake page because she was jealous and wanted to break us up!???  Can you believe that !  I swear people have to much time on their hands and the internet just makes it worse, go get a hobby!

Hope that you have a great day!

And if you live anywhere near Montreal dress warm this -35C weather is not a joke!

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Insert Sad Face

     Another week, as I predicted the scale went nowhere this week.  So I am still at 230.  I guess that it could be worse, right?  This is not acceptable.  I have to get back in the swing of things.  I am eating much better and I am sure that is why we did not see a gain. I guess that is a plus.  I made a wicked Indian Spiced Vegetarian Chili from Clean Eating Magazine.  I used butternut squash instead of pumpkin and I added corn.  It is so yummy.  I will be eating that for lunch for the rest of the week. I have to get in more water  and get off my lazy ass and go to the gym. 
    I am in such a funk these days.  I am taking a break from the dating world since I am tired of getting the shaft (not in that way....ewwww).  Men are so rude and technology does not help.  I guess not everyone's mother's raised them right, because when you say that you are going to go out with someone and just STOP CALLING, no rhyme or reason.  That is rude in my books.  Listen, I am a grown woman and if you are not interested in my I am not going to break down and cry, just give it to me straight   You don't even have to call, send a text. But to say nothing at all is just rude, point finale.

     Heard on the news last night about a 13 year old boy that shot his 16 year old brother by accident in our area.  They found a gun in the closet and were playing with it and it went off.  Another family ruined. Was creeping around Twitter after I heard the news and kids that go to their school (down the street from the school that I work at) are devastated   Supposedly both boys were good kids.  So Sad.

Oh did I also mention that it is -25C today with the wind?  What the eff???  

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I Look Away for One Moment

     I have learned a few things about my body over the last few years.  I need to be focused 100% of the time.  On Friday, I went out to a Mexican restaurant with a few of my friends. No bueno.  We shared a a sampler and I ate a bit of rice and tortillas with a bit of lamb, chicken, shrimp and pork.  Considering I have been eating fish and veggies for lunch and dinner, this was more than I was used to and I felt it.  I am not going to let this get me down and I am right back at it on Monday.  I have been good this weekend.  So this week I am sure that I am not going to see the 4 pound loss that I wanted.  That is life right?

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Friday Mini Rant

     Sometimes I hate the gym.  No, it is not what you think.  Sometimes I hate the people at the gym.  The people that WORK at the gym.  Here is why.  Yesterday, I am minding my business getting my cardio in.  I had already done 30 minutes on the Stepmill (that mother is a biotch) and I was at minute 10 on the elliptical enjoying Four Weddings on TLC (I don’t have TLC at home so I try and watch it at the gym it I can).  When these two “trainers” approach me.

Trainer 1: Hi

Me (startled): Hey…

T1: This is Dominique, he is new here and is going to start training people.

Me: Hey…

T1:  Since I know that you are super nice and here often I decided to come over and say hello.

Me (In my head): Oh lucky me….

T1:  So you come here a lot eh? (Canadians do say eh)

Me:  Yeah, I try to come every day, you know try and get off that extra weight

T1:  Well you have lost weight since you have been here, what 15 pounds?

Me: No I haven’t actually I put on about 20...

T1:  No, no you haven’t

Me: Yes I have

PAUSE

Now this where I get mad, how are YOU telling ME how much weight I have or haven’t lost, mind your effin business.  That is one thing that I hate about this journey, people always try and size up my weight lose.  Things like, wow I never realized how big you were or do you really weigh that much? Are questions that erk me.  I have gained 10-15 pounds in the last year.  Please do NOT try and tell me that I haven’t.  You are not my clothes that I have to put on everyday, thank you very much.

That is the end of my rant. 

Thank you for reading and have a great weekend!

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Progress At The Gym

   I am a BEAST!  I am really happy with the way things are going in the gym and I am really trying to push myself each workout.  I leg pressed 360 pounds yesterday, yes--eight 45 pound plates on that baby.  I only did 6 reps but I am still so happy.  I think that tonight I am going to tackle some lunges because that it what always puts a burn in my legs, especially walking lunges.  My long term goal is to get to 200 pounds by the end of June.  If I keep going the way that I am it is doable.

   Healthy eating going so well that I am reluctant to go out to eat with my friends, yet at the same time I don't want to just stay home and stare at the four walls.  This is really going to be the next challenge, balancing life with weight loss.  I don't want to get into that "two steps forward, three steps back mode".  I am supposed to go to a Mexican restaurant on Friday and I am really going to have to skim the menu well to find the best thing to eat.

   Yesterday we went out with the Running Club and it was great the weather was perfect 2C and it was sunny, the girls had a great time and I am happy that we are getting new members every week.  The weather for the next two weeks is going to be way too cold to go outside.  We made a deal that if it is colder than -10C we will not go inside.  Instead, I think that I am going to introduce the girls to the 30 Day Shred and we are going to try that.  I hope that they don't hate me after.

Looking for a book to read?  Check out The Fault In Our Stars by John Green.  A really sad book laced with humor.  Guaranteed to make you shed a few tears.

Have a good one.

     

     

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